wow crazy week! I moved in on Saturday everythign went well, I'm pretty much unpacked and settled. I had to go to SanAntonio on Monday morning for my grampas surgery, talk about a stressful day first of all I didn't really sleep on Sunday night (or anynight lately) so I was running on little sleep. then sitting in a hospital with my gramma and my aunt all day is enough to stress just about anyone. I think the worst part of the entire day was driving from Austin to San Antonio and back on 35 I want to know whats the deal with those crazy cement dividers? their huge and just about covering the entire lane I could swear theres not even enough room for 2 cars to pass!!! I rushed home monday evening to work and like I said just haven't really been able to sleep to I've been whiped out all week.
I decided to come to home to Kerrville this weekend so I can get my TV and see my family and friends. I got here around 9 and as soon as walked in the door my little niece went crazy and wouldn't leave my side even as I type shes here asleep waiting untill I'm done to go to bed. shes 2 and gorgeous also my parents are back from Colorado with my other pretty girl niece and my sister inlaw. Ofcorse my nephew already has made plans that we are going to the park tommarow to fly kites!! It's a great feeling this Love :) noone could ever love like a child the way a little kids face just lights up when you walk in.

I also found out this evening that an old friend of mine is being charged with the murder of his 7 month old son. I worked with this guy atleast 40 hours a week I think at one point we decided that we spent more time with each other than our "real" friends and family. this young man would never hurt a child he has an older son thats about 3 or 4 now and would do anything for his baby I promise his entire life was dedicated to his son. I'm scared for him i wish there was something I could for him. please pray!!

I was reading the Message last night in John and I came to the part in Ch. 12 where Jesus is telling about the grain of wheat and how it has to be planted in the ground dead to the world in order to reproduce, and he goes on to say "if you hold on to life, just as it is, you destroy that life, but if you let it go, Reckless in your love, you'll have it forever, REAL and Eternal" isn't that amazing think about it how "reckless" are you with your love?

Lord teach me to be reckless with my Love, teach me to love as though I've never been hurt or moreover that I don't care if it hurts. I want real and eternal life.