Where has all the passion and fire gone?

I think that God has been teaching me allot in the past couple of years, but I have to wonder where has it all gone?
There was a time when I was really in Love with my god. These days I feel like a fake everytime I say the words out loud. How can I say that I love Him when I don't act like I do? How do I act like I do? In the past couple of years I have found allot of freedom in god, I have learned that its OK to be me, no matter how screwed up I am. but in my freedom have I lost how to be in love with the only thing that really matters in my life? How do you love someone, how do you show that person that you love him?

I want to be in Love.

they're having a huge party next door, right below my window. I figure we hold our share of parties in this house so I really can't complain. It's only the first they've had. Besides that I ran over and grabed a beer to unwind after my long day at work.

Ahhh work...I worked tonight with 3 of my favorite co-workers. Aly, Keri, Russell and I had a wonderfull evening at Walgreens. With this group of people not much gets done other than very long discussions about what ever it is on our minds. Tonight the main topic was that we should not all eat Taco bell for lunch/ dinner again. Then there was the massage session, the convo about the one employee we don't like, nail painting, and smoke brake's. The best part of the night was definitely when Russell and Aly serenaded me on the intercom. They did a great rendition our favorite song "all by my self". Walgreens music will do this to you!!

good night

17 more days....