19 more days....

The issue of same sex marriage has been brought to my attention quite a bit lately. Once again although I don't claim to understand all of it, I don't see how it is anyone's (including the government, either state or country) place to tell a person who they are allowed to love and spend the rest of their lives with. Why is it the a homosexual couple can spend a life time together, yet have no legal right or benefit of the other. I have friend that has suffered with full blown AIDS for the last 15+ years, and every time he has to go to the hospital his partner (whom he has been with for atleast 10 years) can't even sign the admentance papers!! This man is the one that knows all of his concerns and wishes if and when it comes down to his last minutes.
If we live in a "free country" then we should be able to chose who we spend the rest of our lives with. The government doesn't tell us what religion we have to be, nor does it tell us the beliefs we have to accept. Why then do they feel they have the right to tells who it is OK to marry? Why do my friends have to move out of this "free country" to be legally united and marriage?

not intending to scare anyone. Yes I'm still stright, just ask any of my gay friends.

You know I don't even know wether I think that it is morally right or wrong.
I do know that I love my gay and lesbian friends just the same.

By the way.... My Birthday month has started, its my turn to be treated like a queen!!

21 more days

I'll be a 1/4 of a centry old!!!

I feel the need to be creative!! I've had a very strong erge to pick up my camera again. I haven't really shot much lately. I think I got really discouraged the last time I shot because of all the thousands of mistakes and horrible pictures I got. So I put the camera down.

I have loaded my camera and I'm off to take some photo's of the world around me. I wonder if I could capture this city the way that I see it?

I can't hold the camera to long it hurts my hand! I guess its a good thing I have to go to work later.

22 days...

can anyone tell me what I'm counting down?

I think I've decided that we're doing karaoke this year!!!

HIP, HIP, Hooray!!!

so whose in?

And once again I'm repeating my self....seriously, what is it? Why is it that everytime I'm happy with how things are going something comes up to bite me in the butt? I just posted how I'm really happy with my life and that I feel really loved...and then out of nowhere these old feellings come up. In the past I've felt like a tag along, and that I'm not really a part of things I'm just the girl that always happens to follow along. I can honestly say that haven't felt that way in a very long time until today. It seems far to often I feel that way when people ask us all how we know each other or how we came to Austin or really anything that has to do with Soul Cafe. I know that my friends love me, but sometimes I feel as if they (and/or others) see me as the groupie waiting to hear where the next stop will be.

I am not posting this to get any kind of sympothy of anything of the sorts. I simply needed to let this out because I know its just the ugly guy getting me down the best way he knows how. I don't want this feeling hanging over my head for the rest of my life. I thought that if I just put it out there then its gone. Its here on my blog and not in me.